Settling in

Fall is here. The leaves have all turned deep red and vibrant yellow. The air has a crispness to it that warns that winter is coming soon. The world looks different in fall - the colours have a different quality to them. Summer's colours are deep and saturated. Spring's colours are new and soft. In Fall the colours look like the air feels - crisp and sharp. I had forgotten how much I love fall.
It feels like a long time since I had a fall in Ontario. Four falls in Manitoba, one in South Africa, one in Rwanda. There must have been one fall here in Ontario in there somewhere but I get all mixed up sometimes. Anyway, with this fall has come a sort of feeling of being settled. Not geographically, since I spent a week in Winnipeg and am now house sitting in Mississauga for a month, but still somehow I feel more anchored. I still want to be back in Rwanda, but I am less ants-in-the-pants about it, if that makes any sense. I feel calmer about being 'stuck' in Canada and I am more contented. For the first time I can honestly say that if my trip doesn't actually happen in January (as is looking more and more possible) that it will be ok. Not that I know what I will be doing with myself if I don't go back to Rwanda, I still don't have a job after Dec. 31, but it will be ok.
I am actually starting to look forward to the snow. Weird. I have gradually started to acclimatize to the cold mornings while I walk to the bus and although I know it is nothing like the cold that is coming, I feel like I'll be able to handle it and eventually get my 'Canadian blood' back. I am thinking about learning how to snowboard. Or at least taking up skiing again. I may break something but at least I'll be out enjoying the snow until I do. :) That being said I am sure there will be several 'I hate snow' posts to come this winter!